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My first time watching porn

Do women watch porn? Sure they do. Though they might not admit it. But how do girls get into watching pornography? We asked five young women from Delhi about their first-time porn experiences.

Yuck!
Twinkle (name changed) is a 30-year-old-school teacher

I saw porn for the first time when I was 24. I was with my cousin. My cousin’s boyfriend gave her a cassette and told her to see it as it contained a “good thing”. He also advised her to see it when she was alone.

She thought that he had recorded some love message for her so she invited me to see the video when no one was at home. When it started, we realised what it was. Foreplay was fine, but when oral sex began…it was horrible. The penis looked unnaturally big and was so inconsistent in size with the man. It was YUCK!

Best porn ever
Rita (name changed) is a 26-year-old development professional.

I was curious so I did a random Google search. I saw very hard core blow-job type stuff and I hated it.

But then I Googled ‘porn for women’ some time later and found Anna Span movies. I saw those with my boyfriend and it was much better. A year later I discovered Erika Lust and my sexual life has never been the same again.

It is the best porn ever, very real life and told from the eyes of a woman. Male oriented porn has no story, only sex, but Erika Lust is sex with a story. I find her perfect – visually and conceptually.

Kind of disgusting
Gita (name changed) is a 26-year-old M. Phil student.

My female cousins and my sister decided to see porn. They managed to sneak in a CD from somewhere. I was much younger, maybe around 13 or 14. So, they made me lie down and go to sleep. But I was too curious so I pretended to sleep and kept peaking. I did not see much, and what little I saw seemed kind of disgusting. It must have been really badly made porn, I think.

So fake
Veena (name changed) is a 28-year-old journalist

I went out with friends and bought a CD to watch it. So in the college hostel, all of us sat down to see it. I guess, out of curiosity and just for the sake of cheap thrills. I didn’t enjoy it. I think I enjoyed buying the CD and then the company of friends more than the porn experience. Porn is so fake. I don’t think that’s how real sex works.

Wide-eyed
Sarika (name changed) is a 30-year-old publishing professional

Yes, I have seen porn around four or five years back. I had gone to a cousin’s wedding where other cousins had got an X-rated DVD which got exchanged with mine. When I came home that night I had their DVD while they had mine.

Next day I saw the contents of the DVD on my computer. Phir kya tha, aankhein khuli and muh band ka band reh gaya (what then, my eyes were left wide open while my mouth remained shut out of shock). I quietly saw it, unfortunately alone.

 

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