Mera class 9th sae 1st year tak bf tha..mai jab 1st year mae thi tho caste ka problem huwa tha ..tàb sae hamari relationship kharab hone laga.. ush waqut mujhay bahut bura laga tha kyuki mae juth nahi bolna chati thi lekin whi mujhay uskay ko milaya lekin mera caste juth bolkay tho mae bahut hurt huu.tab sae mae usko bahut ignore karnay lag gayee..mane itna ignore kiya ki who cigarette tak ko v touch nahi karta tha daru pina suru kiya tha... usnay 1din call karkay bola kii gf banaya mane.. mujhay ush waqut v koi fark nahi para.. badd mae 3rd complete hokay mane v bf banaya lekin ush waqut mae ushko bahut miss karnay lag gayee thii.mane ushko call karnay ka bahut try kiya lekin usnay numb v chng kar liya tha.. new numb pucha mane uskay dosto ko.. lekin who itna hurt huwa tha sab ko numb dekay sae manan kiya tha...new bf k sath hoti thi tab v ushka absence feel karti thi.. ush time sayad ushnay nahi choda hota mujhay.. graduation cmplt hokay result aaya tha aur v jyada miss karnay lagi thi mae ushay.. meray bf ko dusri ladki k sath room mae naked dikha mane.. kavi socha nahi tha mane yesha kuch dikhnay ko milega.socha nahi tha mane yesha kuch hoga meray sath.bahut difficult time tha meray liyea..tho mae competative exam ka coaching join kiya..ushka numb 1bhaiya ko bahut bar bola hai tho denay k liyea who boltay thae kesay duu who mana kiya hai.. tho mae v ushko miss karti rahe..aru meray sath 1ladka bahut sida sada sa meray sath batay karnay lagay aur time k sath humsono relationship mae aagaye ek dusray ko acchay sae janee bina...relationship tho aagaye lekin mae ushiko ko bahut miss karti thii... jo kuch who meray liyea kartay tha who sab yad karkay roti thii... bad mae avi jisko mae numb mangthi thi who bhaiya call karkay bola tummara ex tummarhi number mang rahi hai duu kya.. mae new bf k sath thi mane kuch sochay bina kuch samjay bina ha boldiya.. who mujhay 5mins badd kal kiya.. ushka aawaj suntay hii mae ro padii who v.. who mujhay milnay k liyea bola tho 3din bad milnay gayee mae.. bahut khush thii mae.. mujhay jo chod k gaya tha mae wohi ban k gayee.. aru pucha tummari bf hai.. mane ha bola.. ushay laga mae itni khush new bf k sath huu.. actul mae usko milkay khush thi mae..1month acchay sae bath kiyea phn mae.. ushka gf nay dusri sadhi kar liya tha... mera bf hai jankey who meray aur mera new bf k bich nahi aunga bolkay mujhay ignore karnay laga.. fb mae v block.. jab call karti thi busy huu bolkay phn rakh deta tha.. Ushko pata nahi ki mae ushkay sath rahena chati huu... ish janam mae hii nahi harr janam mae... mera new bf bahut sida hai uho relation mujhay bojh lagnay laga tha 2or 3months badd hii... 2years huwa relation mai intimate nahi huya hum dona.. agar koi touch v karay mujhay tho mujhay accha nahi lagta.. ronay ko mann karta hai.. agar bf touch kiss v karta hai tho mae meray ex ko imagine karti huu tab hii jakay kiss karti huu... batt nahi kiya hota tho thik hii tha sayad jab sae mae ushkay sath batt kiya tab sae mae pagal ho gayee ho.. ushka bahut yadd aata hai new bf itna sida hai break up duu tho v mujhay hii guilty feel hota hai.. 2 or 3months sae hii try kiya brk up denay ko.. lekin who mantay hii nahi hai.. please mae kya karu advice ka bahut jarurat hai