Suicide is not the answer, beta. Hymen can be torn or stretched in lots of ways without having any kind of sex, or, horse riding, through everyday work, and sports. Some women are even born without a hymen. So, don't worry. Please do not think about taking any drastic measures. As for marriage, are you sure you wanna get married to someone who doesn't have faith in you? A relationship is based on trust, love and mutual respect. So, if your partner to be, can't respect your body and your decisions, and trust you then perhaps you should re-consider marrying him. Don't worry, dear. Just take care of yourself. All the best. If you would like to join in on a further discussion on this topic, join our discussion board, "Just Ask” https://lovematters.in/en/forum