Oh well I was also in relationship with a guy for four years.It continued in school and then in college. The guy I was with was not academically good. Because of this he lagged behind me two years. I still trusted him. I used to motivate him to study because my parents are very particular of academic. My guy's mother would talk to me, she would ask me to some how push her son towards studies. I was in college and he was still in school. Technically I knew much than him and I would get angry with for not being serious. My guy would trust his school friends more than him. Here I was breaking my back with studies so that I can in the last demand my father the groom of my choice, the guy I love and my guy was enjoying his life. I was running out of time. I was in 2nd year and my guy failed in 12th breaking my trust and everything. I really feel lucky that i always trusted his immaturity and did not agreed to sleep with him. Though normal kisses romance was there. There was a little pressure for sex from his side but I stuck to my decision. And I am really really happy with decision that I made. After breakup that idiot guy in anger said very mean things like he will tell my father about us and he will show my father my Instagram account and my photographs in midi and cleavage. He also said that I will call guys to my home sleep with them. Though I have moved on I still keep tabs on him. I still ask our mutual friends about his studies and well being. When his father expired I did go to visit him. I treated him like my everything. This vent won't get filled easily no matter if I get into another relationship. I won't be able to love anyone that much because I won't be able to trust so much. I had to break up because there was no point in stretching it because in the end my parents happiness matters to me and till the time he would have done with my masters and my parents would have started to look for a boy for me and with my parents rejecting my ex I would have to end everything.